Tumblr Post—June 29, 2010

It’s amazing how much of my voice has stayed steady.

10:03pm, e. 13th St, New York, New York.

🚨 This piece is lightly gory and talks about when MRSA colonized my body and I was constantly having infections excised from my skin. I believe in this case, it was my armpit. Cellulitis appeared after shaving, I believe! That’s what I get for trying to be a lady! 🚨

tomorrow a needle will numb the spot where infection brews under my skin. i will lay back. i will close my eyes. a scalpel will cut my skin and dig into my flesh and remove

what is not wanted.

what is not right.

it's invasive. it's violent. it's happened to me six times before. i know it.

tomorrow i will feel it, right now i fear it.

i will embrace this fear-not because i am brave, but because i have no choice.

because self-pitying doesn't heal.

i can't just quit gluten, take my medicines, take vitamins, walk a couple of miles to and from work every day and be better.